Sometimes I wonder how different my life would be if I had taken different steps in life. Like, what if I had chosen to go to UNCG instead of Appalachian? Would I have ventured into Geography? Probably not. I would probably be teaching history somewhere in the Triangle area of NC. I would probably be closer with Brad but rarely ever see Carmen. I obviously would never have met some of my friends here, like Katie and Andrea and Stephen. And I certainly wouldn't know Jared. I probably wouldn't be a home owner yet because I wouldn't have had Andrea's homeowner influence. I wouldn't have my two awesome kitties, because apartments generally don't like that. I'm sure I would have found some guy to hang around with, maybe date, but I bet he wouldn't be permanent. I'd probably be driving a different car too, because I would most likely not have picked a Saturn. Why not? Because the reason I picked a Saturn was from driving my brothers to and from Hickory while he was away at boot camp. I'm sure I wouldn't have been able to commute to Greensboro from Kannapolis.
What if I had gone to App, but hadn't chosen break up with Joe F? He was a nutcase, but he was crazy about me. I was into him too, but I took him for granted. In the end the religion and jealousy got in the way. But what if I had been mature enough to handle things differently and to actually give some back instead of refusing to change any? Would I have married him? Would he have gone to medical school like he said he would? Would I be one of those yuppy doctor's wives (not to say that all doctor's wives are yuppies, but I bet I would be) who ended up completely resenting her husband for never being around and then ultimately cheating on him? Would we have kids? Would they be nuts like him? I bet I would have even quit my job and been a stay at home mom. Not that there's anything wrong with that. I would much rather be a stay at home mom than send my kids to daycare, but that's a long way down the road.
What if I had gone to App and did end up in Hickory, but never worked at the Brush? I wouldn't be able to afford a mortgage. I would probably move from Andrea's into a crappy apartment now that she's leaving. I wouldn't have my two awesome kitties. I would be poor all the time (not like that's any different). I would have a lot less friends. I would go out a lot more and spend all my money on beer and stuff. I wouldn't be able to afford clothes or any of my fun accessories. I would never get to go on vacation. And I certainly wouldn't know Jared... Or would I? Would our paths have crossed if we didn't work together? Would I randomly meet him at a bar one night? What would I have thought of him if I just saw him on the street? I probably wouldn't have taken a second glance. Nor would he. I'd probably still be stuck with old what's his name from 2 years ago. Or I'd still be dating boys off the internet *shudder*.
The point is, I'm happy with my choices. I'm happy I went to Appalachian. I'm happy I broke up with Joe F. I'm happy I work at the Brush, and I'm happy I'm doing what I'm doing. Now, what step do I take next?